Saturday, September 5, 2009

My thoughts

Warning: Read at your own risk. LOL

Behold, Children are a heritage from the Lord,
the fruit of the womb is a reward.
Like arrows in the hand of a warrior,
So are the children of one's youth.
Happy is the man who has his quiver full of them;
They shall not be ashamed,
But shall speak with their enemies in the gate.

Psalm 127:3-5

As I am adapting to life with three children, I am reminded that God only gives us what we can handle. These past two weeks have been precious. Even though we have been plagued with many hospital trips and phone calls, I have really become attached to my growing family. When I had Madison, I was advised by many people that "a boy and a girl is good enough." But, in my heart, I knew there were more chidren to come. Now that I have said to many people, "I'm DONE being pregnant. Never again let me do this," I am feeling as though I may again go back on my word. Children are a blessing.

When I was growing up, I never wanted to be a wife. Truth! I never wanted or longed for a perfect wedding or perfect dress. I never had those dreams of this big fancy wedding and all that goes with it. I longed to be a mother! I wanted children and had no intentions of waiting to have them until I was older. I had planned on adopting a child with a hearing disability. I had already started to research it. Then, I met Hal. We have the same feelings on parenting. We do not believe anyone else has the right to parent our children as we feel we do an adequate job on our own. God holds us responsible for our children! It just fit perfect. I love my husband and we have had our ups and downs as anyone else. But, I really wouldn't change our lives (okay, I lied I would change a few things but it usually doesn't have to do with our marriage as much as outside factors. LOL)

So now that I look at my crazy kids, I wonder what life has in store for us!?!! What will they become when they get older? Will we have more children? Will our children have to roll the dice with genetics in the future? None the less, I can not dwell on these thoughts. Life is too short to wonder "what if" all the time. I will do as I always do, enjoy my children and make the best out of a situation that only God can control.