Rant about Breastfeeding!

You know, I know first hand that having a baby can be stressful! This time around, I feel that it is a tad bit more. I love Paige, she is an easy baby. She is going through all the stages that my other two have gone through. I just feel like there is so much more that we have to worry about.

#1 CONCERN...Breastfeeding! I HATE that I can't actually breastfeed her. We tried, God knows her and I tried! I was aimed at beating the odds but it just wasn't going to happen. There is no way she can hold a pacifer in her mouth, not alone have enough suction to breastfeed correctly. The last time I offered it, she screamed bloody murder. That is when I just decided it was either keep trying and cry every time or just do what I can to keep her on breastmilk as long as possible. This means..PUMPING, PUMPING, PUMPING! I HATE pumping! I think this is why I NEVER had a storage for the other two and I don't yet with her. I plan to get ahead of things soon! Actually I'm trying my damnest to get ahead of her feedings. Right now she is having maybe 1-2 bottle of formula a day. Which I think is pretty good considering I'm pumping in the car, hand pumping, etc. It's so freaking time consuming! I always loved how bfing was so easy. You just plop a boob in their mouth and they eat. No warming bottles, no clean, nothing to carry with you when you go out! Plus, all those nutritional benefits, it's just perfect. Now, I have to pump, clean breastpump stuff, store it in the fridge, make sure it's not too old, make sure I have a good 4-5 ounces in each bottle, and then take another 20 minutes to feed it to her. So total feeding time ends up being like 40 minutes. Then count the fact that you are suppose to pump 8-12 times a day. Yeah right, did I mention I have 2 other kids that are sick of me being "busy." It's a LOT! But, you know what...I pride myself on being a strong, confident, and strong willed mother..so I'll keep doing it as long as I can! So now I'm going to be drinking my 65 ounces of water a day, eating NASTY oatmeal, taking my Fenugreek and pumping like a mad woman! Hope it pays off till she's 9 months like the other two were when they self weaned!